Writers Block or Mama Brain?

I know it's been a little bit since I've posted last but we are in Leap 5 now, so if you have kids you know that basically means clingy, fussy, and holy emotions batman!

I'll be honest with you, I don't really have too much to say these days. Not sure if it's the PPD/PPA, or just the exhaustion of recent reemergence of middle-of-the-night wakings, but that's where I am at. I've thought about for weeks what I should talk about in a new post, but nothing seemed to be worth writing a whole blog post about. So instead, I thought I'd give you a couple of updates (& pictures of course) of what life has been like for our family lately.

Little B went from being a terrible napper, to an amazing napper, back to a terrible napper. Now we're somewhere in between, lol. Same goes for his night sleeping schedule. We all know that "sleeping through the night" doesn't mean actually sleeping through the night - it means sleeping a minimum of 6 hours at a time. So, if you put your little one down to sleep at 7:00pm and they wake up at 1:00am... they did it. Yay, right? Ha. Luckily, Benjamin wakes up at around 3:00-4:00am and it's usually due to peeing through his overnight diaper (what's the point of those things if they don't actually last the 12 hours they say they do). Then it's a toss up if he's going to go back to sleep or blowing raspberries and scratching at the bedsheets for 30-40 minutes. All I can say is, at least he's cute when he wakes us up - smiling and giggling nonstop!

Our loved ones are slowly getting vaccinated and we are so excited about that. While we know vaccines aren't 100% effective, it is so relieving knowing that life can slowly go back to normal soon. My son can finally get hugs from his aunts, uncles, grandparents, and close friends (masked still of course) without me having a panic attack every time they do so. I know he could still get sick being unvaccinated - as could those of us who are vaccinated - but I also know the importance of B getting socialization with other human beings in the world. He is getting sick of being stuck in the house with mama all day every day.

We celebrated B's first Easter last week. Some of you may not know our family personally but my fiancé was raised Jewish (although now he's what you'd call Christian Agnostic) and I was raised Christian. We have decided to raise Benjamin in a Christian household, but of course we will still educate and acknowledge Jewish holidays & traditions in our home. It was so nice (but also overwhelming) to take him to his first Easter service. He was whiny, did not want to sit still, and mama left his headphones at home so the music was too loud for his little ears (we went for a distanced walk during that portion). But we were at church - something we haven't really been able to do since he's been born. He'd only gone to one service prior and lucky for us, he slept through the whole sermon peacefully. It was a wonderful service, a beautiful day outside (too cold for our REAL Easter outfits), and we were there as a family. Just don't tell Benjamin that he was supposed to get an egg hunt... we'll do it next year, I promise!

Now, if someone would just let Tallahassee, FL know that we are ready for summer weather... that would be great. Benjamin is just dying to get into the pool and this mama needs a tan badly! This whole hot one day, cold and rainy the next day thing just isn't working out. Winter is over - bring on the heat!

I know I am probably writing to myself with these posts... but for whoever is actually out there reading all these, I hope you and your loved ones are doing well. Staying safe, finding ways to spread joy, and creating memories with your loved ones. I know it has been a LONG year, but we will get through it. And life will be normal again. Eventually. I hope.

Hang in there!